Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Home Alone


Shoot.
Who'd have thought what I have not
because I'm caught in a knot in which my
brain is simply simple. Stumbling silly
on sancious syllables like a swanky
boy who's pants shan't fit his knees properly.
Properly?
Shoot, I knew it was you, you can't be too cool
to lose a game in which you can't be a loser.
Boozer, don't do drugs also dammit.
Cannit be cool to swig a juice box, I'd rather
not drink that concoction I caution myself over.
Grover, like Sesame Street.
Lets meet, after the after party, festive but snug in
a nest I digress and confess that that shirt was a mess
with my dress, can we try not to cry over it next time?
Shine.
Like a spoon.
Or the moon.
Or a white kid's ass for all I care.  

Zipped Tight


I'm considering not speaking.
For it's always hurting you.
I say the wrong stuff
or I say not enough,
And I do not know what to do.

You'd be happier
And my speech shall be still.
I'll continue this way,
starting today,
until I fall deathly ill.

My sarcastic tone won't wound you,
And my replies of 'OK' won't be around.
'I'm sorry's diminished,
my voice is finished,
I'll no longer make a sound.  

You Know That


Please don't cry...I love you...
You know that.

I said you're nothing?
You know I didn't mean it.
I hit you? I called you a what?!
I'm a bastard?

You little bitch.
Come here.
NOW!

No...?
Okay...
Here I come.

Why are you crying?
Come here...let me hold you.
Why are you pulling away?
I said I was sorry.
I didn't mean it.
I love you.
I would never hurt you.

You know that.

Winter Warmth


Winter Warmth
Winter draws nearer,
but I want you closer.
Snow falls fast,
so let's fall slower.

Leaves let go,
but to you I cling.
As cold sucks life,
out of everything.

You breath life into me
and warmth grows everywhere.
You kiss me slowly,
the heat within me flares.

Our lips melt together as
snow blankets us white.
We're warm and melted
as day fades to night.

Winter can show us cold,
together we make heat.
Which keeps us warm and happy
as snow melts at our feet.

In your arms I smile,
you smile too.
So much affection as we say
“I love you”

You can kiss away the hurt,
wipe away the cold.
You affection run deeply
as it's my heart you hold.

Warmth is all I feel with you.
So don't eve leave me here.
I can't retain life and warmth without you.
Please just stay and pull me near.

Where?


Where am I?
Where are you?
We're here.
You're there.

Where are you?
Where are we?
You're there.
I'm here.

Where are we?
Go somewhere else.
I'm here.
I forgot.

Go somewhere else.
We're here.
I forgot.
Where am I?

Us Two


Girl, I see you walking down these halls
And baby you're turning heads.
your face when you smile – at me;
them other fools can drop dead.

Sexy, you kiss my shy lips
and suddenly I'm off in another world.
Honey, you hold me close and
I don't (ever) want another girl.

Baby, you go home for a night
and I stay up thinking of you.
I want you next to me,
with me,
I want it to be us two.

Boy, I see you standing there – Waiting.
My heart bounds and leaps.
I just want to laugh, kiss and love you,
All this love, baby, you can keep.

Your lips, so warm, attract me
and your smile is unfairly sexy.
I don't ever want to leave this...
You taste so sweet; my kind of candy.

Baby, you go home for a night
and I stay up thinking of you.
I want you next to me,
with me,
I want it to be us two.

Untitled


Can I really trust you won't do it again?
Especially since you hide so much from me.
Did you really expect me to remain your friend?
When you clearly thought I couldn't see.  

Until the World Ends


I've never fallen out of favor with you.
So till the world ends,
Just hold it against me.
I've been banging my head against the wall.

So till the world ends,
You're cooler than me.
I've been banging my head against the wall.
We all struggle with forward motion.

You're cooler than me,
With all the right moves.
We all struggle with forward motion,
If I had you.

With all the right moves,
Just hold it against me.
If I had you,
I've never fallen out of favor with you.

A Duet of the Lovers

(Draft.... Three?)

She –
With her black shimmering hair
and pale slender fingers –
cradles an exquisite violin.
Dark as midnight
and grasping the bow,
She
unfetters
a string of notes

They slid into the air
reaching out and promising comfort
Only wanting the listening minds
of the audience
Hypnotically
They gaze back at her
with blank eyes.
The notes f a d e
into silence

when she begins to play
a slow and sweet tune.

The wave delicately kissed the audience.
Snuggling in their ears and whispering affectionately.
Warm smiles populate their faces
And they listen closer.

She withheld a serene expression
as she played,
swaying and singing with her violin.
The newly captivated audience
followed with their enlightened ears and brightening eyes

He strode onto the stage.
His disarray of gold hair shadowing his closed eyes.
Gripping his violin and surly sawing.
Anguish
rising up from him
screaming.

His music lashed into the air.
Resonating deeply. Angrily.
Whipping to no avail.
His fingers flew with raw emotions
Bow strokes strong
clipped
and quick.
He leaned with his rage,
stomping and lunging,
shuddering with sick pleasure
at the empowerment of his
malicious legion of notes
that suppressed her sweet
melodious life
to oblivion.
The notes crashing
plowing into each other.
Catastrophe
Mayhem
The air charged with strong energy
striking and utterly shocking.

The watching eyes.
Jaws slack.
Ears assaulted.
Minds closing.
No protection
from such a feral musician.

He was playing with such negativity and rage
that it seemed she could do little
to quench it.
And they watched,
as he opened his eyes and found her.
For a short moment

he stopped.

Their eyes connected.

They held
and looked.
Gales of silence snuffed out any noise,
any rebounding notes
any thoughts.

The pale green pools of her eyes
mingling with stark blue.
Breaths in correlation with the other.
Her eyes watching his
with compassion
and determination.
And his bore into hers with unobtainable madness.


She spoke one word.
But with it was a plethora of good intent.
The single syllable blended with the silence
And reached his ears with timid fingers,

Please.

Their eyes held each other.
She swept up her violin
and began playing.

He didn't dare close his eyes.

He dared to listen.

The audience sat it awe.
Eyes lingering on him.
Ears lapping up her lyrical affections.
Watching
as he was stripped of his anger.
She eased away the pain.
Her notes
caressed his heart
and kissed his mind

He was in rapture.


(Draft Seven(final))


She cradles an exquisite,
dark as midnight , violin,
unfettering a string of notes.
They reach out into the emptiness,
shimmering, glorious and pure.
Alive with rhythm and purpose,
filling an empty space with beauteous melodies.

He strode onto the stage gripping his bow and surly sawing. Anguish rising up from him,
screaming his notes into the air.
Resonating deeply. Angrily. Cruelly loud and powerful. His fingers flew with raw emotions.
Bow strokes strong
clipped
and quick.

The notes crashed,
plowing into each other.
Catastrophe.
Mayhem.
The air charged with strong energy.
Striking and utterly shocking.


Their eyes connected.

The pale green pools of her eyes
mingling with stark blue,
watching with compassion
and determination.
His bore into hers with unobtainable madness.

Their eyes held each other.
She swept up her violin
and began playing.
Her lyrical affections caressing
his musical mind and heart,

He couldn't look away.


The Saints We Love


Golden fingers comb through tall trees like saints, the floor is it's pilgrims
Majestic flowers peer up to the golden hands – awaiting the caress; a loving
gesture of wonder. Earth wafts up (pines and soil, life and raw earth) and
kisses the gentle souls of any being. The Earth – alive and generous with
its ever eternal beauty. It's bestowed upon us pilgrims (which marvel at a
green draped surface) to look up to our saints with awed eyes and embrace
the kiss of heaven – hear their whispers sing.   

The First


I fear every smile
that spread across perfect lips
I dread the deep gray eyes
That imagine our first kiss

I shudder at each word
that stroke my rigid spine
Asking me lovingly to relax
but I keep my line.

I cringe at each tough
Those genuine fingers that play my keys
I seem to be an open chorus
sounding like an ocean's rolling off me.

I cry at every midnight
I'm fearing what can only be the worst
Never had such terror stuck me
In realizing this is my first

Yet before I fall asleep
That perfect face comes to me and asks,
“Why is it you fear my love?”
No, I fear that it will never last.  

Symbolism Poem


Your eyes shine like the sun.
Its path finding my garden.
My everything.

You're there and flowers bloom.
My plants, my life
grows.

Your touch creates new life.
So take my hand and let's walk.

Walk into the sky.
Into where we'll live.

Before we leave – pick me a flower.
And forever I'll be shining too.

Sun, My Fire, My Friend


The sun says hello to me
each morning
Says goodbye
each evening

I watch; I can't play with fire.  

Spring Cleaning


Dust off my old memories
polish up my new ones
I organize my thoughts
And keep tabs of my attitude
Sweep out my forgotten things

Swift through my friends
Keep ideas in order
New things'll go there

Rearrange my academics
Try to find what I forgot....

Secrets


I kept if as a dirty secret from you.
Lied – by saying nothing.
Keeping it to myself to torment me.
And although I spoke nothing
But the truth
And only the truth,
I said nothing and lied.
Lied, lied, lied.
Now my death has brought
smears on a perfect picture.
Yet no one knows the reasons.
Because inside, I kept it.
It's why I had to die.

Sea of Tears


She’s been treading water all these years,
Choking drowning.
Once, the inky blackness was blue.
Once, the cresting waves sat placidly.

The sun used to warm her waters,
But now, dark and cool.
The water presses against her.
No longer helping her to shore.

Opening her mouth she loudly cries.
A throat once strong from singing,
Dies from exhaustion.
She felt the sorrow leak into her lungs.
Terror struck she desperately tries.
But her legs are growing weak.

The water closed over the crown of her head,
The darkness reveals nothing.
Her hands grab for something that’s not there.
She sinks because she’s dead weight.

She sees nothing.
Not even a glint of sun.
Not even a flit of a fish.
Not even her own slow arms
Or floating hair.

The darkness holds her,
She’s no longer drowning.
She’s no longer there.  

Rudeness of Silence



IT'S LOUD
It's quiet
Rings in my ears
It's irritating
My mom likes it.
Why?!

So quiet
SO LOUD
It does nothing
No purpose
Yet
It echos
(echos...)
(echos...)
It moves
It gets bro ken
S
h a
t t
er
e d
Peaceful
Evil
Total opposites
But
Silent

So rude
As it never
Answers

Foreboding
Ominous
Awkward
Quiet
Again...
Why?!
So RUDE
I
Hate
It
.
.
.
.
Shhh

Remember That Time


Remember that time?
I called you mine.
Where every laugh rang.
And out eyes would shine.

Where every kiss would linger.
And with a brush of a finger,
We'd be so intertwined.
Remember that time?

I remember your hands...
And how they knew best.
Girl I'd fall again.
With every caress.

And how with every meet,
You'd lay against me.
How you'd kiss my cheek.
My heart tossed like the sea.

When can we quit remembering.
And get back to us.
Make new memories and moments.
You and me with no fuss.

I can kiss you again.
Wind my fingers in your hair.
Sit in your room.
With all memories we share.

I love you honey – I do.
Don't make me come get you.
Stop remembering – just come here.
Let me erase your fear.  

Princess


So much depends
upon

This babe, gurgling
galefully

Pink with light
laughter

Swathed in shimmering
silk

With a kindly
kingdom

Before her comely
crown

Pink Tux


I'm going to wear a pink tux to the prom.
Ricky I'm sorry I blew up your mom.
What could possibly go wrong?
I sincerely hate this song.

Ricky I'm sorry I blew up your mom.
Live without a care.
I sincerely hate this song.
Aren't you gonna share?

Live without a care.
Someone please save us, us college kids.
Aren't you gonna share?
Oh no, not for me.

Someone please save us, us college kids.
What could possibly go wrong?
Oh no, not for me.
I'm going to wear a pink tux to the prom.

Piece of Me


I told him good-bye,
Without saying a word.
But he understood and
Walked away with my red coat
In his arms.

Perpetuity of Love


My love,
Is forever.
Is one capable of not loving?
Can one not know how to love?

Love is going to be forever.
It's immortal.
Love changes people
For good
or not.

Infants need it as much as
A grown man

For, ever there will be love

and there is no denying
My love for you either.  

Pained Silence


Such scars on your skin...
you must have been so angry
so broken...
like me.

Pink scars
line up and down your arms.
Thin...barely visible
yet they scream out a pained story
if only you'd let me listen...  

Forgot what lies behind me.
Only see what lies ahead.
Deep passion burns within me,
every step can keep it fed.

Nowhere


My mind would wander aimlessly,
as I stand here stiff and still.
Can't place on why I am here
but I came on my own will.

Now Here


Where am I?
Where are you?
We're here?
You're there.

Where are you?
Where are we?
You're there.
I'm here.

Where are we?
We're nowhere.
I'm here.
I forgot.

We're nowhere.
We're now here.
I forgot,
Where am I?

Not Mine


I'm going to delve into this
New profound self.
I'm going to make it go away
This person can't
won't
will not
be me.

This mind is too shallow
And this body is too weak.

This person can't...
won't
will not
be me.

It makes too many mistakes
It can't stop stumbling on nothing.

This person can't...
won't...
will not
be me.

I wish to enter this mind
And widen its range.

This person can't...
won't...
might...
be me.

I wish to help this body
To be its balance.

This person can't...
might,
possibly
be me.
Is it too late, to take back words?
Too late – to love myself?

This person...
might
possibly
be me.


This mind is more abstract,
more beautiful than shallow.

This person...
might
possibly
be me.

Lastly, this body is nimble
is capable, docile, working.

So
This person...
yes,
is me.

My Flower


 I've picked you for my own.
I brought you to my lips,
And you took my breath away.
But then it was as though I hurt you,
You closed your precious petals,
And I could no longer hold you,
For every touch made you wilt.

My flower,
My beauteous flower
please...
bloom again,

If not for me,
then for the one you truly love

Me and You


You see me,
but
Prefer you hadn't

I see you
Look away
and indignantly
walk away from me.

You hear me speaking
so,
Just shoot me those eye spears

I take them and
painfully,
close my mouth.

You criticize my forgetfulness
and,
I become stupid.

You complain about my wrong doing
Instantly,
I apologize. (Does it matter?)

You say I'm not sorry.

Ok.

I silently call you a hypocrite.
Why you tell me:
“You can't tell a person how they feel”

I feel sorry
But you know all.
So when you say I don't.
I don't.
But I really do.

So please –
I beg of you.
When I'm sad
– tell me I'm happy.
When I'm crying
  • tell me I'm faking.
When I'm emotionally damaged
  • tell me I'm normal
When I hurt emotionally
  • tell me it's not real
When I blame you
  • tell me it's my fault.
So then when I say I'm thankful
You can tell me –
“No you're not”

Longing


The leaves fall
quiet and quick
sweetly dancing
evenly swaying
languid motions
so free
so beautiful
like we long to be

I Wanna Hate You


I just want to stomp up the stairs
and scream into my room
Act like you maybe care
and I'll blow up the moon

I wanna throw my chair (at the floor)
and rip apart my sheets
I wanna toss stuff out my door
and kick around my feet

I wanna toss my lamp outside
and throw my clothes too
All the while, I wanna cry
All cause I hate you

I wanna scream at my wall
and bawl until it hurts
Throw stuff 'till I fall
Exhausted for all it's worth

But instead I write here
and silently scream too
There's no need to look
Because I hate you. 

It Escapes Me


I remember.
I forgot.
So frustrating.
I don't know.

I forgot.
You remember.
I don't know.
You forgot.

You remember.
You don't know.
You forgot.
Okay?

You don't know.
So frustrating.
Okay...
I remember.

Her


Look.
Do you see her?
Quite pretty.
She's yours right?
Do you care for her?
Love her right.
She was given to you.
Take pride in what you got.
You've got her.

She's there,
When you need her.

She's there,
When you're alone.

She comforts you.
Thoughts of her.
Thinking of her.
It's something you do.

Hearts



Sit in silence,
words need not be spoken.

Lay upon the feelings,
that were once broken.

Build a structure,
A heart much stronger.

One that won't collapse,
and will beat longer.

Free Fall


Unfettered
from life
I
f
a
l
l
through the air.
My arms reach out
and the wind
catches me.

I
flutter
and
sway
I
twist
and
flip
before the ground wraps around me.
And in my startled state

I sleep,
nestled in the Earth's warm embrace. 

For What's Right


I stood up,
(well my hand did)
Anyways, I spoke up.
My neighbor,
the prissy girl in front
of me was wrong.
I said what was
right
justified
correct
I explained why I was right,
went through each step,
And proved my point.
It was honorific
because she was wrong,
“The answer is actually two.”

For The World


I spread my arms out wide.
As though embracing...
The bright blue sky.
Wind kisses my cheek and mind.
As I burst into a cloud of butterflies.

Grass dances below,
flowers dance lovingly slow,
skies rocketing high.
Earth breathing one deep sigh.

Trees shelter things a many,
Springs provide water a plenty,
Butterflies kiss the warm air,
And life beneath becomes fair.  

Finger painting


My hands that I use to write this poem
Are not the same as my hands that
wipe away tears.
My hands that open a new door
Are not the same as my hands hat
close the old one.
My hands as I place them atop still water,
As though my glory holds me from plunging down.
My hands that feed myself,
that feed others.
My hands that grasp those of my beloved.
My hands that touch – feeling.
My hands that paint a picture
upon a blank canvas – my canvas
filled with words.
My hands – that carry fingers – my fingers
for finger painting.

Eyes


I see you there
My eyes taking in your glory.
I close them and shun the outside.
A dark brown abyss that leads
to something bigger – something better.

My windows that when you peer in
you see my soul.
Beneath the chocolate
lies a radiant scarlet.
Do you see?
To open my windows each day
Is like opening a window and seeing out.
Out to life, beauty
and chaos.
To friends to family
to everything.
My eyes; my windows
I look out and ponder.  

Vivo para ti

Vivo para cada sonrisa
y cada risa.
contigo aquí,
No puedo estar sola
No sin ti.

Es cada toque
hasta una caricia
a mi corazón.
Un beso a mi mente.
Una canción a mis oídos
que me hace amarte,
y a ti amarme.

Mírame en los ojos
y yo miraré en los tuyos
y será todo lo necesario
para saber

Tu ángel

Tu ángel besó tus labios
y levantó tu corazón
a un lugar del embeleso.
Tu ángel canta
en el cielo que le diste.
Escucha; es para ti
ella te ama 

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

The Epochal Sophisticated Scentence

She could remember how much pain, which made her vomit accusations, they'd brought her soiled, battered, hell-bitten heart and rugged, lanky body; He recalls watching them, disgusted to a point of suiside but chained to the liability of pure hatred and worship of his own life, selfishly looking away from the woman as wolfs and men went rabid of a slate of meat; they remember, they reminis on the power they shoved down eachothers throats, growling with much anger and austere greed to steal life from the restless and devour their take, their over take, their meal for the hour; of swiftness they gagged on their own desire to kill and maim and avoided eyes, which aren't capable of viewing eachother, in fact- they crawl and worm on top of one another like a black ball of sickly maggots, but their souless eyes and gutteral growls portray their animalistic characteristics of Hell; they hear her pleas, they listen and plead back with mock sympathy; he still avoids watching, only turning his head to his feet which are no longer resembling a foot, it resembles his chewed up soul; he knows he's next.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Evil Deceptions

    Sink lower,
            Down, down so deep.
Where flowers grow when the small girls weep.

            Beauty from pain...
                        Yet we're not weak.

    Rise taller,
            up, up so high.
Clouds weep from being in the sky.
             
              Raining tears...
                        and we never knew why.
           
              Here grows a tree...
   'bout as tall as me.
            Yet I feel it growing higher.
      So high I can't see.

Marvel at this beauty.
            So wonderful and comely.
My eyes deceive me
            But it's so sweet like honey.

    First glance,
            She's beautiful.

Now she's not.
           
            A black writhing soul
   And in our light she's caught.

    Lock her in a cage of goodness
            Expose he to everyone,
Where they can see the truth.

            The truth...

                         In which they shun...


Daddy I Love You

It wouldn't have made a difference
if I had begged you not to leave
I knew well enough to understand
what was happening to my family.

I stood at the door, my sister next to me.
Waiting and listening.
And when that door opened
I wanted to close it and never let you out.

She creamed at you to leave.
But I wanted you to stay.
And so, I watched and cried
along with my sister as you packed.

I followed you ,
like a puppy,
around the house.

I cut out my picture;
don't forget me.

I watched my family crumble.
I cried over the pieces
Which would no longer fit.
Not like they used to.

Concerto

My readied violin fits under my chin
                        Like a pillow under my sleepy head
                       
                                    I swiftly lay my bow carefully across the strings
            Counting the beats as cello and bass play in unison
                                                Their deep tones vibrating          
                        Through the still bodies of their listeners
           
            Five, six, seven, eight and
           
                        I begin

            We begin

My bow glides effortlessly
            As though I was wiping tears
                        away from a child's face
            As though lips brush
                                    the soft expanse of a pink cheek
            A woman finding peace within her home 
                        finding joy, elation
                                    They sweep through me
            I play this music
                        I make it mine

            The orchestra diminuendos and I play louder
Enunciating my clipped bow strokes
                        My fingers working up and down the strings
    Throwing my notes with meticulous precision

                                    Following was a delicate melody
            Soft angelic and powerful
                           My eyes close
               Peaceful

            The orchestra crescendos
                                                playing with me
                        I lead them through
                                        Leaping, swaying
                            The notes come to life
             And we dance across them

                Closing the song
                           like saying goodbye
                     to a close friend

                    I play softly and gently
                                                A light whisper
                             The tweet of a high note
           
            The last thing I hear is that note
                        A faded goodbye

              I promise to say hello again